december has always been my favourite month of the year.

but somehow this year, i dont look forward to dec with as much fervor as i did in the past. this year, i wished dec would go away and come back some other time.

revelation. that’s something i would use to describe december this year. i can foresee the storm in the making. i can almost hear the shouts and screams and wails that will overwhelm me. should i prepare the napkins and containers to manage the flood of tears that will come?

i get tt terrifying feeling again. dread, i hate dread. it makes me lose courage..

but like all things in the world, you cant stop its arrival and you wont be able to delay it’s departure. it will come, yes. but it will go. and then everything is fine again, until the next one. and daddy, you will be with me all the way. <3