sometimes i dont know whether to thank the advancement of science and technology or not. just moments again, i learned through facebook that someone has passed away. we’re not close but he is someone that i know of, someone i have talked to, someone whom i’ve shared experiences with. and somehow to learn of it through facebook seems a tad too unrealistic, too cruel to me. a dark shadow has loomed over my head when i think of how young he is, how his real life has not even started, how his loved loves are feeling, how many wishes left unfulfilled. life’s uncertainties..

i dont know M well at all, we may have spoken but we lack that spark that gives me a gut feeling that we can be friends henceforth. but he is an awesome person who is more than willing to give a hand in need, he has experiences which given the chance i would love to hear one day, he has friends who will never forget him (they might move on with their lives but from time to time, they will think of him. think of all his goodness, and perhaps sadness will overcome them once again) i feel sorrow for those whose heart has been broken by this news, i hope that very last breath that M took was one filled with joy, contentment, and courage.

death takes your breath away, not in a good way i guess, but the next snippet of air that you consume will be a chance to start life all over again. funny how death surrounds us every day.. i’d always feel a tinge of regret whenever i see or hear of death but i cant imagine how it will be when it strikes somewhere close to the heart. i cld of course pray never to experience it but i know too well that is not something that i shld wish for. death is a part of life, if you think it will only come once when you have walked to the end of the rope, you are wrong. it has always been there, waiting to catch you by surprise..

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i feel a stone sitting atop my heart. i want to go somewhere, scream it out, get drenched in the rain, feel that life is still somewhere out there. not just to see a living breathing feeling person but LIFE!