had an assignmnet to do a self reflective journal for ltb. the prof repeatedly emphasised that the purpose of this assignment is to push youself to delve deep into your thoughts and really know yourself. i spent a day on it and thought i did a pretty good job.

the assignment was returned to us today and i realised, i havent gone in deep enough. i havent gotten down to my core and it is a little disturbing. i realised that even though i know and am glad that i am a human being with flaws (loads of them), i am still afraid to find out the REAL me. even when i pen negative comments on myself, i hold the current of criticisms. but the comments scribbled on the sides of my assignment really showed raw and powerful ideas of who i may really be; and it is a little frightening. is this really me? is she right? oh no.

but perhaps she is not right, perhaps there is more to me. as for the answer to that, it can only come from me. :x